fuuuuuck the system!

yeah so umm...planning for the hut. hopefully taht works out. so we decided our songs for battle of the bands are dream on-aerosmith, our own song-us haha, and hot for teacher by van halen!!! yeah thats gonna be a shitload of work but we got like 7 months and if we perfect that song oh my god will we get so much respect. tay is gonna learn the guitar part. imagine that. tay playing eddie van halens master piece on stage with us at her side wowowowowowow. well yeah. i fucking love connie and tay. like i can talk to connie about anything and stuff and then tay just makes me laugh at everything. i just love both of them. and theres nothing id rather do then be in a band with my best friends. fuck man. yeah. well anywho. i think we'll have more then an 8th tomorrow for the HUT HUT HUT. last week of summer and we're gonna party shit up!! ahh crap i just remembered. band tomorrow. oh well its pretty fun stuff i guess. so anywhoooo. yeah ive been thinking alot lately. i dont think i like kenji. i mean like i know i go on and on about him but like maybe its just that i always felt the security of having a guy who would protect me no matter what and always tell me he loved me and would hold me for no reason. he always acted like a boyfriend. and i guess i miss that. but im starting to think its just the thought of that that i miss. not actually him. i think i just need someone to make me feel like everythings alright. nothing is ever alright but when you have someone to love and who will love you back, they blind u of everything for at least moments and make the world seem beautiful. thats all i need. and i will find him. but for now i guess i'll just fool myself into liking kenji. maybe cuz its so familar? oh well ttyl man.